What is fake and what is real?
”You’re so fake.” Someone I don’t know sat behind their phone this morning and sent me a DM that just said: “you’re so fake”.
Take away the lashes, makeup, and hair extension; I’m still me – no more no less.
All of that fluff doesn’t make me who I am. None of it makes me love myself to the core, flaws, and all.
From the outside, you see a blonde that seemingly has it put together, but this body and I have walked through hard seasons.
I’ve struggled with anxiety, negative body image, hating the reflection in the mirror, turned to alcohol to cope, obsessed over calories, felt not good enough, not pretty enough, not smart enough, all the things.
When I decided to stop picking myself apart, I was able to start putting myself back together. Piece by piece filling love into the holes I once filled with shame.
If you shame yourself into losing the weight, you won’t be happy when you get there – It will be something else. If you get the boob job, botox, lashes and hair thinking that those things will make you love you…. You’re wrong. Until you truly love yourself, you will never be happy with the reflection in the mirror.
So no, I am not fake. I know exactly who I am and where I am going; I just have longer hair and lashes on my journey 😉
I continue to fight the internal demons, but instead of rebelling with shame, I replace it with love. I eat well and workout for my wellness, and I thank my body every day for carrying me through this life.
Love yourself, my friends!